Tuesday, January 02, 2007
ok i'm back. i've got the urge to blog today. blurt whatever i can.
dammit. it's amazing how certain people can make your day, yet at the same time make you feel like crap.
they've practically got us twisted around their little finger.
and what's most annoying, is that whenever we're feeling our worst, the most emo songs come on on the player. seriously, it's been happening the past 36 hours. and it's annoying the hell outta me. i hate it.
here's the big BUT.
BUT yet again, there are certain people. who piss you off real bad, and god, they don't know their bloody limits. they just go on and on and can't even tell you're so bloody pissed. heck, i tried being nice, do they reciprocate? NOOOOO, they continue blabbering on and on and on.
earlier while i was typing this entry, i was controlling, but WHAT THE HECK. AIN'T GONNA CARE NO MORE.
SCREWWWWWWW YOU PIECE OF SHIT. THANKS FOR SPOILING MY DAY. was having the time of my life feeling embarrassed and all, and you came along to spoil it. seriously. i hated and loved that few seconds when it all happened, even thinking back about it was fun. AND YOU CAME ALONG. THANKSSSSS. REALLY. THANKYOU SO BLOODY MUCH.
heck i don't even care if you read this, tell it to the whole world and get your friends to hate me. look i don't give a damn. i'll get through this year being anti social and geeky for all i care. leave me alone and stop talking to me, and i'll be eternally grateful.
this by far, is probably the biggest mistake of my entire life.
'this', not meaning this blog entry by the way. in fact, I LOVE THIS BLOG ENTRY TO THE CORE.
alright, forget that, ignore it and let's go back to the main point here.
dammit, i was gonna repeat myself, but forget it. dammit i feel like shit, dammit i hate what's going on now. i'm kinda lost for words now.
to sum it all up, i miss you, i miss everything that happened, i even miss anything that could have happened, whether or not that makes sense.
i thought i'd forgotten everything, especially since it's been a year. but nope, complete deception. nothing's changed. the feeling's still there. tadaa, i said it. finally.
to anyone who's reading this, esp you darrlings, please please, please don't ask me anything. let's just say i'm feeling bloody emo after this new year's celebration.
you all must be thinking, 'oh my. amelia's officially snapped.' ah heck, i couldn't be bothered about anything now.
and hey, i'm not the only one feeling this way on a new year's holiday, really. go figure.